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August 25, 2007
'cuse me please / one more drink
On Monday, I went to my regular prenatal appointment. I met a new dr (I'm roating through the group as to have meet the person who would be catching the child). She was funny and warm and due to some eviction signs checked me and found me at 2 cms with the head down. She laughed at my surprise when she said that it would probably be sooner rather then the 2 weeks I had thought. So the wait began and every day was full of watching for signs. I had been cramping off and on since the Saturday. On Wednesday I started getting full balling up of the uterus in a regular 4 min pattern that lasted for 1 minute. We thought that it would be it and Ben wanted to come in. I waited becuase they were not really hurting. I finally decided it was false labor and they went away when we went to bed.
And so I existed in a stage I hated - not being in labor, but always wondering if this was it. but I strongely felt that if this was it I WOULD KNOW.
Saturday morning Ben got up for CPR class and the dog and I fell back to sleep. As I laid in the sunlight I decided that i simply cannot exist anymore soley to wait for this baby to appear. It was driving me crazy. So i decided that I must do something productive. I decided that I should start my long planned t-shirt quilt. I have been planning on doing one since, well, years and years ago. I have two boxes of t-shirts from jr. high, high school, and college that all were too big, but i couldn't bare to part with due to the event association. I had meant to start this project early in the summer when i stopped school, but there was always something else to. I also decided that I would concentrate on not thinking/talking about the baby. I decided that he would come when he was ready and if that was four weeks from now than that would be OKAY. And i decided that i would concentrate on enjoy my last days alone.
i got out and worked out - pushing it a little because there was no reason to reserve my energy. I read up on the internets on t-shirt quits. I made a list for the fabric store. Ben and I hauled my shirts up from the storage unit. I sorted and washed. We played some scrabble and mario. I got to the final boss, but still need to figure out how to kill him. We spent an hour at the fabric store. I was excited as one of the major purchases was 30% off. The frabic store turned out also be a craft store and so got some paper on sale for some announcements. We then headed to an awesome diner that i lunched with mark the rock star on monday. I had a taste for a BLT. We found it closed. We drove to another diner mark had recommended. It was excellent. We came home. Ben watched the Cubs and I cut about half of my t-shirt squares. Not once did I ponder whether this was a sign.
Posted by christina at August 25, 2007 9:53 PM