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November 15, 2006
imagine me and you / i do
today, in micro, the chick next to me was using one of those pens with the 4 colors - blue, black, green, red. it reminded me of my jr. high days when i used a pen with blue, black, purple, and pink. I would take classes notes in blue and write notes to my friends with the purple and pink. i can see that pen in my head. i wrote a lot of notes in class. this continued into college where my friend court and i would mail letters back and forth. we were old school like that.
there are some days when i have so much to read or i care (WAY TOO MUCH) about my grades, I wonder what i am thinking. why did i sign up for studying and tests and so much reading? Why did i take the hard stats when i could be breezing through the easy stats and my gpa would be better off. but my brain is better off. i am finally (thanks pepp ta) internalizing that grades should reflect what i should learn and not what i know. yeah, i made mistakes on my stats midterm (which, i have no idea as we haven't gotten them back), but i have learned what i did wrong and why it was wrong and how to improve for the next paper or the next exam and really for me in general.
i am here to learn a different language, which i what i am doing. i know where i want to end up many years from now. I have faith that i will end up there, the uncertainty of the path is bothering me. though, not really, it is a temporary bother that i know i just focus on as a distraction from my current work.
finals come soon in three weeks i'll be done with this quarter. i am not looking forward to finals, but i am looking forward to the break that follows. it is filling up with things like kitty surgery, a trip to arkansas, getting my plates changed, meeting with a very important person that i hope will be my path...
Posted by christina at November 15, 2006 2:06 PM