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October 19, 2003
and i will wait to find / if this will last forever
work on sunday. i actually have been working on sundays for a while. just a couple of hours though. i should work more, but there are more important things in my life. like playing super mario brothers. ; ) okay, that was yesterday. pink lemonade and stoli is very dangerous. i should've remembered, and i did kinda as i made sure i ate a big dinner. but i still ended up at the end of the night with the room spinning. uck. though ben is amazing. he tucked me in, turned on some music and carassed my hair until i fell asleep.
pink lemonade night is friday nights at a gay bar. we go occasionally and make a good night about it. we had about 10 friends from the department there. it is amusing to me that i can go to a gay bar and still get hit on by guys. (granted, i got hit on by women too.) we drank. we chatted. we danced. i got to talk to an friend's ex who i adore and am all sad i don't get to see anymore. though that friend is now dating one of my good friends, and i am so happy for them, but i still can miss his ex. it was hard to see him friday night as it was the first time since the breakup. i forgot how much i adore him. sigh. so it goes. that is life in the work where people break up.
speaking of. there have been a lot of break ups in my life in the past month. (ironically as i was starting a relationship.) it is hard for me as i want to make everyone better, but i know that it is much hard for them. i just wish i could have answers and soothing words. i just listen and be there. that is the best that i can do.
i need to think of a halloween costume. i've never really dressed up before, but there are a plethora of parties this year. i'm current soliciting suggestions.
less than two weeks from my conference. i am stressed, but it is low level stress. i just do the best i can and trust that whatever happens is dealable. i've worked hard and have been plagued by problems that haven't been my fault. i am looking forward to seeing some friends while i am away. carter is coming up that weekend i'm staying with kent - so it will be awesome. i am very excited. i am also v. happy that i have amazing people in chicago that i know are going to want to take care of my cat.
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Posted by christina at October 19, 2003 2:00 PM