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August 1, 2003
maybe happiness is coming / but you don’t know when
so. busy. lots of things are held by skinny threads, and i feel that they are unraveling one by one.
it is a function of me going out of town (murphy's law) that my chamber took a swift nose dive and broke yesterday. it was just sick before, but in the mist of trying to make it better, i broke something unrelated. though i do have to say that i fixed it (with some patrick help) and i felt like a real grad student as i puttered around the lab looking for spare parts for my vacuum chamber. but ed, the chamber is still sick, but it is not broken. (which means that i am just back to my original problem - my plasma not sparking.) but at this point i am giving up and swearing not to worry about it during my vacation. it sucks for my summer student as we had hoped she could deposit while i am game. but alas, there is nothing i can do. it isn't like i can move my vacation. (i can't, cuz jenny's already tried.) this time off is precariously balanced between several things.
i feel bad that i had to cancel my lunch plans, especially since i have time now. i just didn't have time before two, as i was trying to get my chamber back up asap (and didn't know how long that was going to take - cuz i was here until 9 last night dealing with it) and then had to train patrick before blood guy came at two to use the afm. sigh, it will pass. it always does.
i have been so happy this week, i knew that i was going to have to come down at some point, you know. and i'm not unhappy, i'm just tired of things not being simple. why can't things be simple?
i am looking forward to curling up in my childhood bed tomorrow night with my puppy dog. how can i wish more anything more than that simple joy? i can't. bad days come and bad days go, but it is nice when a simple memory can make me smile.
vacation! yay!
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Posted by christina at August 1, 2003 2:17 PM